No words can ever explain
how you changed my life
but this is my feeble attempt at trying-
and try I will.
Oh, and this will be pretty long.
It is like waking up one day
and realizing why you’re where you are.
And oh, finally feeling,
after years of muted emotions.
You made me feel again,
and by that I mean everything –
excitement, anger, resentment, glee, jealousy, longing
and everything in between.
I am scared of the vastness of the ocean,
but with you I no longer am.
Come to think of it,
at least I would not drown alone,
you are also a terrible swimmer love.
I realized, I am already drowning –
gasping for air as I fall deeper into you.
I can easily say,
it is the best way of drowning,
And I surrender,
and boy, was it the sweetest defeat.
I know now
relationships are complicated.
What works for others,
may not work with us.
I am willing to make sloppy mistakes.
I am ready to mix and match solutions
to our bizarre and mostly petty problems.
If you have never believed you are beautiful,
well believe it now.
For I am no liar and I don’t have time
for empty praises.
Here it goes:
No one is as beautiful as you.
you are not flawless,
You are queer and sensitive
You are oblivious to a point it hurts.
But I wouldn’t trade you for the world.
I dare not leave you for these flaws.
but my love for you is bigger than that.
Look here, I say to you
I am not perfect and so are you –
but our flaws match each other
and that makes us the perfect ensemble.
I told you this is a feeble attempt
for no words can properly describe
how a person can change your life
without downplaying it –
just like how we photograph sunsets,
and capture its downgraded beauty
and still be proud of it
(hence me publishing this)
But still, I will continue
please bear with me,
a few more phrases and this will be over.
I just want to emphasize a point.
Please, please know that when I look at you
I see past your boyish smile and serious eyes.
I see you as my lifetime partner,
the other end to my red string of fate –
all mixed into your figure.
I must say,
that was a pretty good blending.
In this part,
I will say
a relatively comon phrase with lovers:
I love you
and here comes a direct translation of a subconsious thought whenever I say it:
“I may not say it as much as you do,
as long as I am with you,
know that I truly, honestly do.”